Monday, November 14, 2011

Dear Jenna,

You may not have realized this, or maybe you did, but when I first met you I didn't know what to make of you with your broad smile and incredibly penetrating eyes. In all honesty, I was intimidated by you. However, the more we saw each other and the more our children played together, quickly I realized you were one of the kindest people I had ever met. Very early on I learned that you were caring, sympathetic, empathetic, considerate and an excellent listener. Above all I could feel from my personal interactions with you and I could see by those you were closest with that you were a valuable friend. "Intimacy", as they so perfectly put it at the memorial service this evening, is what you offered others. A sense of intimacy that was sincere and comforting.


I will never forget that when we spoke you always locked eyes with me as you lay your hand on my forearm, squeezing it softly while we talked, as if to say "we are connected, you and I". You never forgot my name or the names of my children even though you and I weren't close friends. I admired that in you, your fantastic memory and real interest in what was going on in my life. Once you massaged my feet when I was pregnant with Jasper, do you remember that? I was swollen and huge, my feet hurt terribly. I was embarrased because my feet were dirty, but you didn't care. It was important to you to help me, and because you were so kind and so gently forceful I accepted it. How could anyone say no to you? It made my day Jenna, did I thank you properly? I hope I did.

Your joie de vivre trespassed all boundaries and when you entered a room people felt it. I loved the way you loved my daughter's energetic spirit. It was so good to see someone appreciate my daughter for who she. Especially when I often struggled with the embarrassment that so many of us experience when our children are being "challenging" in public. By you being excited about my daughter's bounty of energy and her fabulous fierceness you gave me pause to react to her in times when I felt so challenged by her.

You have taught me, in your way of just being you, to appreciate children and the freedom in their spirits. Thank you Jenna, you have helped me to see that the spirit in all of us is not only worth allowing its freedom, but also worth working every day to grow and nourish.

You have helped me to see things differently. Positively.

Let me tell you, your memorial service was awe inspiring. Stories were told of you that caused both weeping and a rolling laughter of unexpected joy through the audience that filled the room. Unifying us all in the memory of you. I've never laughed at a memorial service before. It truly was a celebration of your life and who you were. People hung on to each other while remembering you. Your son was carried in on his father's shoulders, hugging Florian's head and neck, leaning into him as if to become one with him.




For the service Lucas sat in his father's arms, they caressed each other's faces. At the end of the service we all lit candles and listened to music. Lucas danced with his cousins to the song "turn your lights down low". He danced and smiled and it was lovely to see. It was magical even.

I'll tell you Jenna, It really looks like he'll be ok. Children heal so well. He has such a strong community of love to hold him up and help him grow to be the strong and confident man you always knew he would be. Florian will be ok too I think, Lucas will make sure of that. I saw it in the way he put his hand on his father's cheek, like you might have, letting him know that they are still connected and that you are still connected to them both. He will keep his father strong by embodying your spirit. They will be held together not only by each other, but by you. Not by the grief of losing you but by the joy of having known you.

We will all live our lives a little better having known you. In your death you have reminded those of us that have forgotten that life is worth living. Not just living, but living with love, understanding, connection and forgiveness. You remind us that love is not something to take for granted or to be witheld from someone or spread out thinly to those in our specific circles. Love is worth giving freely and in abundance. You understood this better than anyone.

To live like you is to be like you and to be like you is to live like you.

In my life from this day forth I hope I can learn to live more like you did Jenna. To be as Jenna-esque as possible. To look at the glass half full and to breathe in the fresh air as deeply as you did. To never take anything for granted and be forever grateful for what I have.

I thank you Jenna, for all that you have given to me. In life you offered me friendship and smiles. In death you offer me the chance to learn from how you lived. You offer me renewal.

I will always miss not having known you better. I wish I had taken you up on getting our kids together.

You are truly loved Jenna and will be greatly missed having been taken from this Earth far too soon.


Love C.

Friday, November 11, 2011

Ghostbike. A Preventable Death.






It was pouring outside when I began to write this piece. Seems fitting.


When I first read about the incident involving an unnamed female cyclist killed in a traffic accident I was overwhelmed immediately with grief. My intense grief came from my assumption that the victim was most likely a mom (the report I read said the woman was in her early 40's and had a bike trailer attached to her bike). I related to this anonymous victim. I wept thinking about how her partner might tell her children of their loss. I thought about my own children, I pictured how devastating this type of loss would be to them. I couldn't help but imagine how horrifying an experience this would be for all who knew her. I became consumed in sadness for the day. This was before I found out it was Jenna.


It was then that I became furious. And then reality struck, it could have been any one of us.


"A preventable death" they keep calling it. The accident that took the life of Jenna Morrison on November 7th 2011 at 11:30am.


She was 38 years old. She was five months pregnant. She was a mother and a loving partner. She was on her way to pick up her son from school when she was clipped by a truck making a tight turn in the same direction as her and she was pulled under the back wheels.


It might seem as if this type of cycling death is unusual or rare, but in fact it is not. It is the exact type of fatality that inspired the Regional Toronto coroners office to initiate an investigation of looking into a safer method of travel for cyclist on our busy roads back in 1996 after two cyclist in July of that year were killed the same way Jenna was. Top of their list to avoid such fatalities was to mandate "side guards" on large trucks. This has yet to happen in the year 2011 even with multiple cyclist deaths of this exact kind being investigated since 1996, and those are just the ones that *were*reported (more than 80% of cycling accidents go unreported). A quote from the Coroner's report reads that in 1999 Transport Canada advised their staff “Such guards are the subject of a European (UN ECE) Regulation, the purpose of which is to minimize the possibility of unprotected road users falling under the sides of vehicles and being caught under the wheels. There is no similar Canadian regulation because the nature of the traffic mix in Canada is different to that in Europe; there being a greater proportion of unprotected road users (pedestrians, cyclists and motor cyclists) in close proximity to trucks and trailers in Europe than there are in this country… Nevertheless, the situation is being monitored and if regulatory action on side guards is necessary, it will be initiated.” Yes, 1999. That was 12 years ago. 3 years after the investigation by the coroner was initiated in 1996. Not to mention that the review of the cycling-related fatalities conducted for the report dates back to 1986. That makes 22 years of blatant disregard from Canada's transport administration that side guards are necessary on large trucks to prevent cyclist fatalities. Let's read that again shall we: Transport Canada did not feel that there were enough cyclists deaths related to cyclists falling beneath large trucks (they had averaged at least 1.6 a year in their study at that point) to elicit "regulatory action on side guards" because we as a country do not have enough cyclists and pedestrians on our roads comparable to Europe. Apparently they still feel this way in 2011 even after Jenna's "accident" took not only her life, but the life of her unborn child. This tragedy and the many others that have come before in the same way is not enough to invoke the same regulations (of making side guards mandatory for large trucks) that have been saving the lives of cyclists and pedestrians in Europe since 1989. And to this point I've only been giving you the stats on cyclists’ deaths involving large trucks. The amount of cyclists’ deaths (in any form) a year in Toronto alone is overwhelming. Two weeks before Jenna's death Dr. Dan Cass, Ontario’s supervising coroner for the central region, reported that between 2006 and 2010 there were over 110 cyclist deaths, over 20 a year. All preventable in his educated opinion by making cycling safer.


In a court file from Nancy Smith Lea's affidavit in 2004 in regards to the case of Hannah Evans suing the City of Toronto (after she was "doored" by a drivers side door in 2002 on Queen Street West) section 14. reads: "The City recognizes that there are two ways to plan specifically for bicycle safety on arterial roads: either marked on-street bicycle lanes or a wide curb lane – the accepted standard for which is a minimum width of 4.0 meters." and section 35. of the affidavit reads: "In the Bike Plan, the City recognizes that “bicycles should be afforded the same consideration as motor vehicles on the City’s street system” and that “every street should be made as safe and comfortable for cyclists as possible.” The City acknowledges that to meet this goal it is necessary to adopt “bicycle friendly street policies that give bicycles the same consideration as vehicles on the City’s street system.” That Bike Plan published by the City of Toronto in June 2001 was consequently adopted by City Council but has yet to take effect. In the "bicycle/motor-vehicle collision study" conducted in 2003 by the Transportation Division it states that the initial request for an investigation by the Coroner in 1996 was because the Coroner's findings were such that he stressed that “there was a disproportionate representation of bicycles in (personal injury) traffic collisions, relative to their numbers on the road, highlighting the need for appropriate programs designed to reduce cycling-related injuries.”


Yet every single article that I've read says that it was a preventable loss. How can this be after so many years of investigations dedicated to determining how to create a safer City for cyclists? Investigations dedicated to cyclists deaths specifically related to the dangers of being clipped and pulled under a large truck. After years and years of proposed bike plans how can we still have a death such as Jenna's in 2011 when we knew better, when we knew exactly how to prevent it? I'll tell you, it's because those same bike plans are quickly shelved and collect dust. Cyclist don't buy gas.

So we read in the articles that it doesn't look like either party was actually at fault, "they were both turning in the same direction at the same time". Nobody seemed to be doing anything illegal or irresponsible.


But the truth of the matter here is that someone is at fault. Someone did do something irresponsible that caused this death. The City of Toronto is at fault. The City of Toronto disregarded the danger of that turn, disregarded the need for more bike lanes in our city and has continuously disregarded the need to implement a regulation making side guards on large trucks mandatory for at least 15 years since the Coroner's report advised a need for it in 1996 to prevent "preventable deaths".


Yes, a preventable death that was not prevented because Toronto is not safe for cyclists and hasn't been for over 20 years (at least). In fact in an open letter to the Chief Coroner of Ontario by the Toronto's Cyclist Union addresses the fact that Toronto has "the highest collision rate per capita for cyclist of any large Canadian city" and this can be verified by looking at the City of Toronto's Traffic Safety Unit (2010) Cyclist Collision Summary leaflet. And yet this City, which is acutely aware that it is poorly designed and organized for bikers and motorists to share the roads safely together still insist on advertising cycling as a form of safe, environmentally friendly and cost effective travel for Torontonians. All in an effort to, I assume, create a facade in order to not fall below the environmental standards of other popular tourists Cities. Toronto not only promotes cycling, but strongly advocates and markets it.


People may argue that the City of Toronto has been working with cyclists, for cyclists. And yes, Toronto does have a few rail trails available for bikers and many roads equipped with painted on bike lanes. But we are nowhere close to where we should be, where we said we would be in 2011. It's hard to believe that anything will change when it has stayed so stagnant for so long. And if you look at the difference between Toronto, Montreal and New York you can easily see how Toronto falls short.


http://www.caroulemontreal.com/pdf/verso28.pdf


http://www.nycbikemaps.com/maps/nyc-bike-map/


http://bikingtoronto.com/maps/bikelanes/


I'm not a fan of Toronto Mayor Rob Ford, but as far as his insensitivity to cyclists is concerned - he's just the guy that came and out said it. The City has been ignoring the importance of safer travel for cyclists for over 20 years. And although David Miller did try to make the roads safer for the ever growing cyclists population in Toronto when he was Mayor (even at the cost of being dubbed as someone waging a "war on cars") by creating bike lanes on Jarvis St - we all know how that turned out.


One step forward, five steps back.


Though the investigation into Jenna's death is still pending and nothing has been absolutely determined about the exact details of this accident as of yet it is all too obvious that this absolutely WAS a preventable death (whether the media tells us that or not). A bike lane on Sterling for one might have changed Jenna's fate, giving the truck driver more cause to look for cyclists or perhaps not take the turn as sharply. A slope in the sidewalk on either side of the curve of that corner to allow for safe entrance to the rail trail and/or a safe path off Sterling on to Dundas for bikers would certainly have saved Jenna's life in this circumstance. And of course mandatory side guards on large trucks would have avoided her getting caught underneath it and would very likely have prevented her death.


As redundant as this piece is about how preventable Jenna's death was, it's important to know that this isn't just another biker killed in a vehicle/cyclist incident. We can't let Jenna just turn into another statistic. This type of fatality was under investigation at least 15 years ago. Cyclists’ fatalities in general have been long overlooked as a serious issue with just cause for changing the safety standards of our city in relation to cyclists. The cyclist union, the coroner's office and many council members have proposed not only side guards for large trucks but paved and/or separated bike lanes. And someone, not the City, has painted three large bike stencils in the spot that Jenna died to help motorists recognize that bikes travel that same route, to make that turn safer, to make sure people remember a life was lost unnecessarily and of course to commemorate Jenna.

When will the City finally decide it's been one death to many and start adopting change that can and will save lives?


Jenna should not have died, there is no doubt. The City of Toronto is accountable and we will not soon forget that this happened or how it happened. We will not stop trying to make changes to our City's infrastructure to make those "bike plans" finally a reality by creating "bike facilities" which will make it safer for cyclists and motorists to share the road.

We must not let Jenna have died in vain.


Though I did not know Jenna well, she was a remarkable woman that left her mark on me. Always a great joy to be around. Full of life and love and positive energy, always smiling and encouraging and offering friendship. Well worth knowing and not at all worth losing.


Memorial for Jenna Morrison:

Advocacy for Respect for Cyclists will hold a memorial Ghost Ride to deliver and erect a ghost bike to the site of the accident. The ride to honour Jenna will begin on Monday November 14th at the corner of Bloor and Spadina at 7:30AM and will be traveling slowly and respectfully through city streets accompanying the ghost bike. It will conclude at the scene of the accident, at Dundas and Sterling, at 8AM.


**A trust fund has been set up in Jenna's name with the TD Bank.
For TD customers, the branch number is 0246 and the account number is 637 2358.
For non Td customers, please sent donations to transit number 02462, institution number 004, and account number 02466372358.
For those that prefer Paypal, the Paypal account is In Loving Memory of Jenna, email is in_loving_memory_of_jenna@hotmail.com.

Saturday, November 5, 2011

99%



Inspired originally by the tenacity and fortitude of the good people of Libya and Cairo (the original "Occupants" if you will). This is an incredible movement that has reached across the Globe. A movement not easily stifled by the sometimes violent actions of a Police State, the inattention of the government and the subsequent fabrications of the media.

On the evening of October 15th 2011 I went to St. James park for the "Occupy Toronto" protest to take part in something bigger than myself. I went to take part in this global wide movement and stand up with the 99%.

But as I got off at King subway station on that fateful eve, even I questioned the validity of Toronto's part in all this. Earlier that day I had listened to a protester speak on the news about being at Occupy Bay Street (Occupy Toronto) to fight for "animal rights" and this had, in all honestly, put me off. I wondered for the first time since following the Occupy movement if this was just a bunch of people getting together to make a lot of noise and yell at the government about their different issues instead of a group united, fighting for one strong and very basic cause, injustice.

Yes, most of us have been watching as many of the media warp this story into a story outlining the Occupy Movement as a disorganized group of people consumed in a state of "an overwhelming sense of entitlement" with no real direction or concrete and specific cause to fight for. It's been almost too easy to believe this to be true when we hear story after story of protestors fighting for such vastly different issues. That night, as I walked towards the park, I struggled to see how Toronto could pull it together enough to succeed in being taken seriously in this highly criticized worldwide movement. I realized very quickly though that the movement was in fact much stronger and unified than I could have imagined. Even with smoke screens being put up by the media, once I entered the gathered group at St. James Park I was immediately pulled into something bigger than I could have imagined, something bigger than myself.

Together the occupants of St James Park stood united against the unjust treatment of the middle and lower class. Together they stood as a voice calling out the corporations, banks, and the government who have taken advantage of people too afraid to rock the boat. People not willing to rock the boat (till now) because their very survival and the livelihood of their families depend on them shutting up and taking it. Too long have these large corporations used our vulnerability against us. Gaining their leverage on our dependence of them.

Yes, it’s true; protestors aren’t all carrying the same sign. But the bottom line is that this movement, however many different ways there is to say it or fight for it, is an attempt to bridge the gap between the rich and the poor and to bring an equilibrium to our society. A movement across the Globe engaged in stopping this masked capitalism and instead beginning a new era of actual democracy.



Like that scene from "A Bugs Life", the ants have finally realized that in numbers there is strength.


Time to stand together and stop feeding the Grasshoppers.